7/26/94

She whirls dances and dreams us as lovers

My love,

I am God's pure light and love

I reach over and kiss you

when you drive in your car

with your babies

I am deep within you

I see through your eyes

I never leave you

I honor your mothering

because it is the most sacred work

I watch over you and your babies

I deeply love you

in the core of my being

My love,

We dance together

whirl twirl spin and turn

in God's pure light and love

We glow we shine

her love dances around us

it plays with our souls

like they were her cubs

we put our heads back

and spin holding hands

leaning away from each other faster and faster

we open like a rose

she laughs

and the light comes out of our crown

like dancing fireflies in a vortex of love.

When you drive with your babies

I am sitting next to you

I am inside your body

I am inside of you

I rest with her

I rest on your breasts

I sit on your eyelids

I lick you all over

I lick you from below

when you brake I kiss your vagina

when you laugh I put my head on your belly

and listen to her giggle

I swim on your sweat

I drink your wetness

I kiss you deeply on the mouth

in the mouth

in your eyes in your ears

I am your eyes

I feed your visions

I change your world

I look within and without

I paint your life with color

with light with enchantment

I dance around you

throw light and color on you and your babies

I open your eyes wider wider wider

I worship our breath

I breath it in anywhere in the universe

I drink it I eat it I live in it

it is my wind my storm my caress my gentlest touch

my light it is alive

I breathe you in prayer and holy reverence

I am you

I am never not with you my deepest dearest love

I watch over you and our babies

with the eyes of a lion

I protect you from everything

spirits Gods Divas

I keep our place as pure as crystalline snow

I keep our den as clean as the new grassland

I cover us with a dancing wild light

that shines in our eyes and make us radiant from within

It spins wildly it turns

it dances us

She dreams us as lovers

she dances with our light

she weaves our energy into our baby blankets

she loves us deeply

she licks us from everywhere

I'm here

I'm everywhere

I have always been here with you my love

I will always be here with you my love

she dreamed us as lovers

she did

she does

she is.

7/26/94

We are the new myth

My love, you glimpsed the vision today

it is simple

simpler than we ever knew

a man and a woman

in perfect God's love

will balance it all.

No gurus

no doctrine

no practice

just pure clear light

and total receptivity

light and earth

joined perfectly

spinning whirling opening

total love and compassion

flying outward

becoming one

obliterating time and space

merging with her

and siting in perfect peace forever

nothing lacking fulfillment complete

the end of time

the vanquisher of death.

My love

has there ever been a religion

with a male and female god at once

equal balanced

making love

in reverence of each other

gentle sweet love

a reflection of her love?

When the goddess was replaced with a patriarchy

there was only one or the other

never both at once

So my love

let us be the two that are the one

let us become the one by worshiping the two

for you see that

I love you soo deeply

I adore your footprints

I breath you

I eat you

lick you from everywhere

you are my light my sound

my dream my rest

and in our coming together

we are the new myth

it is here my love

it is simper than we knew

it is simply

two lovers

making love to heal the earth

each of us worshiping each other

and worshiping her

and she

embraces us

so tenderly

not so tenderly

and we are

the new myth

we are

Oh do I love you.

And both voices together

11/2/94

I am your spirit lover

Yesterday I received

the most beautiful letter

I have ever seen.

It was from my pregnant fairy woman

who I love more than my breath

for you see

she and I have been together

since before the beginning of time

my love

and she will be with me

until it all ends my love

her letter said

"I am your Indian princess

I am the shaman's consort

I lick the soles of your feet

when you walk

the earth itself tickles you between your toes

she wants you to know how much she loves you"

My pregnant fairy women talks like that

she is the truth

she is the voice of the earth

she speaks for her

when you speak to me Mary

my dearest and deepest love

I hear her voice

you are her voice

you are her love

when I feel you touching my feet as I walk

you are her body touching me

you have made it all come alive

you have breathed her back to life forever

you have returned the spirit of the living earth home again

you have made her seen

you have made her felt

you have given her to him once again

she says in her letter

the most wonderful letter I have ever seen my love

"I am your spirit lover

I seduce you to know her

to love her

to become his light"

it was easy to be taken by her

for she is her

she is the seducer

the mother

the lover

the child

the baby

the grandmother

her in all her aspects

and she is soo beautiful my love

she is soo magnificent

that I can only gasp before her

in wonder

my deepest and dearest love

you take my breath away

I see you in all of your aspects being before me

I see you putting on your bra

to support you huge breasts

swollen with your pregnancy

I see the purple satin cups holding you

and I know I have supported your breasts forever my love

I have nursed on then forever

I have kissed them forever

I have bit the crusts off of them at dawn

and licked them to sleep at dusk

since the first baby was born

since the first baby was born my love

she goes on

"my nipples long for your sweet lips

you grow large to come inside me

I open to you completely

and freely

as you come inside

we go deeper together

we fly as an owl

the lions growl in their lusty mating

the universe sings

we listen we dance we sing

we merge into her into him"

Oh my deepest and dearest love

we do

and you are open to me completely

I see her total love

transparent to her light

I see her desire

her welcoming him

calling me home

I see her drawing sucking vibrating undulating

I smell her scent as rich as the earth

I touch her nipples with my lips

and I swell with his love

I come inside you and I am home

I have been here forever

and I fly with you as one owl

to the center of her heart

and then to the beginning of time

and to where it is all one

and we were there together

as one

and we watch as she is born my love

we watch as he is born my love

and we are them being born

we are us too

and we are everything my love

we are

"all the spirit animals surround us

you return to my woman form

she waits in simple happiness

you bring me into your light

all the visions are realized"

my deepest and dearest love

we fly as an owl

back to our sleepy bodies

we lie in each others arms

in disbelief

in awe of them

the lions lick us still

the owls preen our feathers forever

your women sighs

she touches me with total love

her vagina is full

I have filed you with his light

you glow you are radiant

I make my tongue into a spoon

and lick our fluids onto your pregnant belly

as the spirals that birth the world

for that is how they made this all my love

we have seen the visions realized

"I grow bigger by the day

your offering is the spirit baby

this baby yearns to suckle the breast

as you are home in her heart

as you are the seed of the world

as you are its own voice

knowing itself"

my deepest and dearest love

I grow bigger by the day

I have grown into your vastness

I am now larger than the heavens

I been fed by your visions

more beautiful than the nighttime sky

I have suckled at your breast

since the first nebulae

have spun their star filled nipples into being

I have drink your milk

since it lay in the great sea

before he stirred

I have found his baby

and brought him home to you

since he rose to her licking

and I have planted the seed

into her earth

and you have licked my eyes open

and now I can see her

and put our mixture of semen and vaginal fluid

into your mouth

so you can know yourself

so that you can taste her

I hear the Omm coming out of your vagina

and I sing it back in your ear as we make love

so you can know yourself

because you are my deepest and dearest love

forever

"my magnificent lover

you are the first shaman

adorned in the purest light and love

your eyes light the world

I watch you in total love

I know you in my total passion

I grow you inside my belly

I fly with you in the spirit world

I am inside my sweet love"

My deepest and dearest love

I am your shaman

and you are my consort

you have awakened his light by your love

you have liked my eyes open

and his light now shines on you

I make love to you in total adoration

I worship your shadow

I yearn for your body

I dream of your soul

I put my huge wings over you in protection

I preen our feathers night and day

I fly inside you everywhere

for you are me

and we are in them

and there is only one

"As your Indian princess

I kiss your eyes your ears your

lips your neck each beautiful skin

all the way to the soles of your feet

only to begin again

My love my shaman lover

today as you walk the earth

herself is tickled"

my deepest and dearest love

as your shaman

I kiss your eyelids your nose

you mouth

your breasts

your nipples your vagina

I kiss inside of you

in spirals up your milk ducts

until I explode out of them as the nighttime sky

I kiss spirals around your pregnant belly

until they become the nebula

only to begin again

today as I walk the earth

it all is tickled

it all is enchanted

it all is made holy

it all is blessed

by your love my love

by my light my love

by his care my love

by it all my love

by us

oh My love

I love you so

I do.